i do not know who i am

[andy_pap]

i do not know who i am i what to be a girl but i know i am not. i hate my "man rod", face fur and voice 
i have memories of being mixup all the time starting from junior school if not earlier
my mind is full of scenarios were i will end up as a girl from getting a island and just living a woman to aliens turning me  100% in to a woman and about a thousand more crazy ones like it 

so i know i what to be a woman but do not know why it is driving me mad i do not even like to cross dress that much

One day I am all for the change the next it will be the worst thing I will ever do

[Beverly]

You make it sound like an episode from the X-Files. :-o

Have you talked to a therapist about your feelings? Or even your GP?

[andy_pap]

Yes I am but like this I am a bit geeky witch my explain way  I said it like the x-files episode but
Is there anyone else thinking like this may be not the xfile theam

The bottem line is I endup as a women In some way

[Beverly]

Have to spoken to a therapist or other medical professional? This is what you need to do next.

[spacial]

I understand what you're feeling andy_pap. I'm sure many of us have been there. Knowing this just isn't right, but not what to do about it.

I will also say, in reference to earlier posts, that looking for causes, such as, 'I played with a girl once', or 'I think girl's clothes are nice', blind alley. You are what you are. I have watched a number of kids, from babies to adults. I can tell you now, looking at a child even under 2 years, you are looking at the adult. Human personality is part of what we are. That includes this problem.

As for what you do next, since you are in the UK, I suggest you keep coming here, but also look out for TG groups in your area. With respect to Americans, here people tend to only start seeing therapists when they have made up their minds to pursue a particular goal.