I'm new to all of this

[Joe.]

Hey everyone,
I'm not sure if this is the right place for my post but I'm new to Susan's. All my life I have known that I'm different; when I was younger I wanted to wear boys' clothes so desperately and people often asked if I was a boy or a girl. I'm biologically female but I feel like I want to be a boy. I'd do anything to be able to live as Joey full time but it's just so hard. I only recently told someone (a youth worker at my youth group) but I can't tell my friends or family. I'm really scared but excited about what the future holds. Sometimes I think that it would be easier to just move away and start afresh as Joey but I wouldn't be able to transition to male without people knowing the real me. I'm so confused right now and I just wanted to vent a bit. Sorry.
Joey

[Chloe421x]

May I ask your age? If your old enough I would get a job and start saving up money. Otherwise, just start doing your homework ( research online ) and learn all you can. Give yourself time to think it over and make sure you know what your doing, making sure to be honest with yourself.

If your close at all to your parents, I would try to find a way to tell them eventually....but more about your situation would help us give you better advice.

good luk with what the future holds, try to be patient even though it's hard!

Chloe

[spacial]

Joey.

You're doing fine.

[Joe.]

Thanks for your message Chloe. I'm not allowed to say my age on here for protection so I have to say that I'm young. I'm nearly an adult though if that helps. I know what I want, but I don't feel like I can do that where I am. My town is so unaccepting, especially my school. I have a job but I'm saving up to travel next year so don't really have enough money to save for anything else. I'm closer to my dad than my mum and when I came out to my mum that I liked girls more than boys it completely ripped her apart so I have no idea how I could tell them this. I don't want to hurt them.

Thanks Spacial.

Joey