Hi I'm Becca and new to this whole forum. I've had a rough year and at the encouragement of a friend am joining here in hopes of reaching out to new friends who can understand what I'm going through.
I can't ever remember not feeling like I was a girl, but because of my very conservative family I never acted on my feelings. I'm from a small town in the south, and even coming out during high school was hard. My father hasn't spoken to me since I was 17, when I told him I was gay. I went away for college to a larger city and that helped a lot, and gave me the courage to begin the start of my transition a few years ago. I only started living as a woman full time a year ago and finally started on hormones 7 months ago, at which time my mother also stopped speaking to me.
I was in a relationship with my boyfriend for 2 years and when I began transitioning he broke up with me then 3 months ago I was laid off at work. I am lucky that my good friend from where I grew up invited me to stay with her, but being back in this small town is really hard. Everywhere I go people know me from growing up here and they refuse to see me for the woman I am. Add to that having the family that has basically disowned me a few streets away, and the situation is unbearable. My friend and her family have been such a huge support system, but I need help from people that are going through the same things I am. People I can ask questions and understand what is going on inside of me. I'm just incredibly frustrated and have been trying my hardest to save money and find a new job so I can get out of here!
Sorry, I know that was a rant but I feel so depressed and bottled up.
