Dysphoria and T

[Nicolas]

Hi guys,

Yesterday I reached my 6 month mark on T and have been enjoying the changes I've undergone thus far. However, I have also noticed that I'm experiencing a lot more dysphoria than I have in the past. Even before I started T.

Has anyone experienced this? If so, did anything help?

I think it may be due to the total lack of facial hair (zilch) maybe? The T has definitely created very apparent changes in my mood, state of mind, etc. And the hair on my legs and underarms have gotten darker, thicker and far more coarse. But it's that precisely that makes me feel at odds. I've become incredibly self-conscious about my chest. I feel as though I've gone from appearing like a butch female to now just being, well, a freak. My voice has changed drastically as well, much deeper than ever.

I'm not sure if this will make sense, but I'm hoping it does.

[Josh]

Im 4months on T and i feel exactly this way...like im jus a weirdo. Im binding more than ever and thinking it isnt helping too.

[Nicolas]

Hey Brayden, thanks for replying. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who has experienced this, or is experiencing this. Though I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with the same issue.

[Adam (birkin)]

There is an adjustment period. Sometimes I feel bad when I don't pass, because I just want to blend in with any other guy and when I don't I feel sort of deficient. It can be hurtful.

That said, I experience less dysphoria as a whole because I am rather happy with my changes although I am still waiting for more. For example, I enjoy being hairier, and I enjoy having a more masculine fat distribution. I guess the best advice I can give is just to enjoy the changes that are bringing you ultimately closer to where you want to be.

[insideontheoutside]

I would say it would depend on the type of dysphoria ... so it could be very individualized. For instance, I've heard guys on here that have bottom dysphoria that comment that the longer they are on T the more dysphoric they are with that area. I imagine it works that way with chests too, although a lot more guys seem to have chest surgery first. If you've got bottom dysphoria that area is always going to be a trouble spot, no matter how much T you're on. For chest dysphoria it's probably the same way (until you get rid of the things). If you don't pass 100% yet, it's probably being hyper aware of being "in between" or not looking as male as you want that might be causing it.

[mangoslayer]

1.5+ yrs on T and 1 yr post op, I think my dysphoria is at an all time high. I think it's because now that 100% of other people see me as a normal guy, it's more prevalant that i can't see myself as one. Its something im working through in therapy. I guess my actual dysphoria was overshadowed by the importance of passing and handling the physical matters of my transition.

[Jared]

I think it's because we want more and more. I passed quite well before T and now I just feel like I'm in between and don't pass at all. People tell me I changed fast but I just can't believe it even sometimes I see what they're saying. I don't know maybe we expect too much too soon.