Ok this is just me posting something that is basically a way of saying hello and to greet the community and let ya see the world through my own eyes I suppose.
We all have aggrovations, things that make us growl
High heels. Oh come on, how long will it take women to fiiiiiiinally get mad at these foot killing abominations? We all know why they are worn, and we all know what they were meant to do. They shift the musculature of the leg upwards so as to make your ass look better. So we are ok with wearing foot wrecking shoes that hurt to wear all so men can enjoy looking at our asses?
Now you add my take on it. Ok assume for purposes of discussion I was ok wrecking my feet in these things, all so I could look better in a skirt or dress, even though my ass is technically not a female body designed ass. I suppose it does about the same thing though. The thing is, I have male body sized feet. Arrrrgghhhh! they don't make women's shoes in that size range. Heck my feet are sort of small as they go, but they are still a good deal bigger than the norm for female feet.
So it is not even relevant if I want to wreck my feet or not, as finding something in my size is a pain. I presume there is a source, if I am ready to go to great lengths. I just wish I could wander shoe stores like most women do and casually buy something nice without it being 90% leave empty handed.
And even if I ditch the high heels aspect, there seems to be no real reason to expect I will ever be able to casually shop for footwear.
I need new shoes, I wish I could buy something 'nice' but it looks like I will be stucking buying the same old men's footwear.
Voice. Well clearly I don't have a female voice. Is there anyway to change that?
It seems like a lot of work to look great only to sound like a guy in drag. No offense to guys that just wish to do the cross dress thing, but, I want to be mistaken for what I am. I hate my voice. All I can do is go for walks, and listen to my music in my headphones and pretend it is me singing. It works most days, but some days I just end up crying to myself as it seems so futile. Often I am not wearing sunglasses for the sun, I just don't want people seeing me crying as I walk by on the street.
Hair loss. Ok I understand this bother most ordinary men. But it also bothers the heck out of me. Nothing screams out 'not a woman' like male pattern baldness. So essentially it also means I either wear a wig all the time, or suffer being forced to be overly obviously visually NOT female. A great outfit is not going to mean much if I am going to look like a balding old man in a skirt. The thing I have seen with wigs, is they seem too damned 'perfect'. I don't want to look hair salon perfect every single day all day long. Do they make wigs to look like a boring female? Is it possible to put on a wig and look like you were in a rush and took less than 5 minutes doing it?
And I suppose the problem of male body under the clothing is unescapably obvious with no clothes on. And I am to some extent the sort of person that prefers to walk around in just a shirt. But with nothing on I am so brutally incapable of ignoring being reminded I am in a male body. I spend most of the day at home, and most of that day is spent being hit over the head all day long with the reminder between my legs, you are in a male body. My preferred form of attire is just a shirt. Nothing but a shirt, no underwear, just the shirt. I hate having things on my legs for the most part, and that is to some extent a fybromyalgia aspect. It makes sufferers uncomfortable to have things on. I know this as I have talked with others. My mother suffers from fybromyalgia too. She also prefers to have almost nothing on. I am currently trying to locate something in the way of a nighty that performs the task of very long shirt, and doesn't beat the wife's comfort level up to much seeing her husband in articles of that sort. Currently my shirts almost make it. Long enough to just about cover me up, just not quite enough. I'm not concerned with the exposure myself, but I wouldn't mind being able to answer the door and not be flashing someone in the process
