Quote from: KyleXX on December 15, 2012, 10:20:46 AM
Why aren't you on shots? They're probably the only thing that can get your T levels as high as you need them to be.
I'm terrified of getting the shots so I switched to gel when my insurance started to cover it. But I'm thinking now that I might have to go back to the shots.
Quote from: Simon on December 15, 2012, 11:26:29 AM
Why do you see your male puberty as a nightmare? Pardon me if I come off as blunt but I think you have unrealistic expectations. You're not willing to take the bad with the good. In every thread I have seen you write you've been upset about the effects of T you were getting (acne and hair loss) so you stopped just to be upset that you're not getting the desired effects (deep voice and facial hair).
Hormones aren't going to turn us all into stereotypically "gorgeous" men. Vanity isn't a good reason to transition. I think you need to seriously look at the reasons you want HRT. Are you willing to accept yourself if the man you become physically isn't what you desire to look like?
You took that last post wrong. I've had low T since August. My T levels have been low all this time. The andro gel wasn't working at all. In August My T levels were perfect the doctor said. I was growing facial, not the best, scrappy and patchy but it was still growing and very noticeable. Now, I can't grow anything but peach fuzz and I've had no further changes b/c of the low T all this time. This is what's upsetting me.
Every year I wait for the day where I look and pass completely as male and almost 2 years later it still hasn't happened. I'm not comfortable that I complete pass as male. (Maybe that's why after 2 years I still haven't been able to get a job. Maybe God is waiting for me to feel comfortable with myself that I pass completely as male before I get a job...?) I'm waiting for the day that I do. I know someday I will and I thought that being on T for almost 2 years I would be passing a lot better. But I've also had a lot of setbacks as well. First being on a low dose and trying to find the right dosage for a year, and then finally finding the right dosage at about a year and a half
and the acne finally going away. Then I switched over to the andro gel and find out that it hasn't been working since August. I haven't had any more changes b/c of that. This has been really frustrating for me. Now I'm worried that if I get this job how am I gonna work out a schedule to get my shot?
Also, if I do go back on the shots, Would I go back on the dosage that gave me the prefect T levels that I had or do I have to start at a low again dose and build up to that perfect dose I was on? I'm just wondering if I could just pick up from where I left off on the shots and not have to mess around again with finding the right dosage since we (the doctor) already know what the right dosage is from before?