Hello there
I'm new around here, but in the few days I've been browsing, this place seems amazingly supportive and fun and so I'm ready to jump in.
Where to begin, it's been a crazy few days. I was born male, and for the last 27 years have lived as a male. I always felt something was a little off, but had always suppressed the feelings until relatively recently. Last year, one of my friends made a comment that I seemed 30% female. Strangely this didn't bother me at all, it was almost liberating. It was one of the first times I rather felt proud of whatever it is I was rather than fearful for the scornful reactions of other people from whatever feminine qualities I had.
More recently I just grew tired of suppressing the feelings and I actively looked at what I could do to explore my gender more. One thing I've always been good at is homework. And boy did I read up on the topic. I had never really considered there being much of an option out there other than GRS, and HRT had never really occurred to me as I didn't know it existed. I looked at every picture in the 96 page Before and After thread and it was so inspiring.
So I made an appointment with a psychologist. I have my first appointment this Friday. I'm nervous but so excited to doing something. I have a ways to go, but I think I'm ready to admit that that 30% figure should be much higher.
I confessed to a friend this week and she was super supportive. They were surprised, but also not surprised - I imagine the reaction is pretty common. The only conversation I was dreading was with my wife. Yeah. I put it off for a few days but eventually plucked up the courage to bring up the subject last night. I was amazed by the positive and accepting reaction I got. I had to have said "you're not freaking out" quite a few times. It was the kind of reaction you get told not to expect, and to prepare for the worst. I got the same surprised but not surprised reaction from her as I did my friends. She has some totally legitimate and expected worries about still being attracted to me if I do change, as in her words she's been attracted to so few women but overall I couldn't have hoped for much better and it truly made me thankful I had her in my life.
It felt amazing. Such a relief. So glad to be here and exploring this side of me.
I'm not sure if I can post pictures but here's the current me if it works
