Am I only one who cry when see younger ones?

[anya921]

Jessica, First of all I must say you look beautiful. Few more months in to HRT you will look stunning.... ..

You are still 20 and you will have so many memories as a young woman. You already posses the looks of a  attractive woman and with practice you can improve your voice. Don't always think about the things you missed. Once you started that it will be a never ending downward spiral which only make you feel bad. 

And once again I will remind you, you are a beautiful girl and you still have many many years ahead you and memories to make. So be happy darling.

[AusBelle]

I certainly don't cry or feel sad, but am glad for those that have been able to transition early.

Sure like most I wonder what would have happened had I come out earlier and been able to change.  During my teens, the internet was but a speck in a geeks eye, and there was very little in the way of literature to be found.  Years spent wondering why I felt like I did and what it all meant, keeping everything locked up tight thinking I was a freak.  These days young people can turn to the internet and discover they are not alone, and find help, and chat to others like themselves with helpful sites like this.

Anyhow, having started at 27, I've now had nearly 19 years as me, and have a past as me.  It's a good feeling.

As the old saying goes, today is the first day of the rest of your life.  Crying for a lost past won't change that past, but going forward from this point and making the best of your situation will. 

[Nero]

Anyhow, having started at 27, I've now had nearly 19 years as me, and have a past as me.  It's a good feeling.

That's when I started too. So many coming out at 27. Wonder what that's about?

[Kelly J. P.]

 I do get upset when I see younger trans girls transitioning - specifically, those that could get HRT before puberty. I don't cry about it, but I certainly feel envious... and then regretful, because I think about what my life could have been like if I had the same opportunity.

I don't usually think about it any deeper than that, so the stories always bother me. I suppose, though, that next time I read such a story, or see such a person, I will remember that there would not have been any way for me to have started before puberty anyway. No sane doctor would let a seven year old take hormones, and my mother would have certainly told me it was a phase - and this would have lasted a number of years, in all probability. Even if everything aligned perfectly, and everything went well, there were no doctors treating trans people in my area until I was fifteen. I would have had to travelled a long ways for every appointment, and my mother probably couldn't have afforded that.

It just wasn't in the cards for me. And hey, who knows - maybe I'm better-off for it, somehow. Maybe some of the masculinization I experienced will actually make me even hotter in the end, and maybe all the depression and anger made me a better person, in some way? I can only hope that all this has been for more than nothing.

[Nero]

It just wasn't in the cards for me. And hey, who knows - maybe I'm better-off for it, somehow. Maybe some of the masculinization I experienced will actually make me even hotter in the end, and maybe all the depression and anger made me a better person, in some way? I can only hope that all this has been for more than nothing.

That's what I think. It's awesome that young kids coming up won't have to suffer. But I can't help thinking there's going to be something lost as far as the trans experience. Oddly enough, I think I have more self esteem than I might otherwise have had I grew up cis.

[Simon]

That's what I think. It's awesome that young kids coming up won't have to suffer. But I can't help thinking there's going to be something lost as far as the trans experience. Oddly enough, I think I have more self esteem than I might otherwise have had I grew up cis.

I think there is always going to be apprehension and loss as far as being trans goes. There are always going to be family or friends who don't understand or refuse to accept it.

Being trans is almost like the final frontier. It's one of the ultimate taboos in society. If I could wish anything for the future generations it would be that they learn to love themselves and not depend on the acceptance of others. Also (and this is where I failed) to not become jaded and suspicious of people. I almost think that coincides with developing a thick skin, it did for me, but there has to be a better way to go about it.

[hazel]

Yep, here's my thought process:

Wow that little girl was actually born a boy? She looks so happy I'm happy for her ^^...  I'll never get to experience growing up as a girl tho.. and I'll never pass as well either having gone through boy puberty and all. Now I feel kind of sad and envious, oh no! I'm being envious of this courageous little girl now I'm a bad person as well...I'm gonna go eat some ice cream.

Rinse and repeat

[LilDevilOfPrada]

Yep, here's my thought process:

Wow that little girl was actually born a boy? She looks so happy I'm happy for her ^^...  I'll never get to experience growing up as a girl tho.. and I'll never pass as well either having gone through boy puberty and all. Now I feel kind of sad and envious, oh no! I'm being envious of this courageous little girl now I'm a bad person as well...I'm gonna go eat some ice cream.

Rinse and repeat

I have the exact same thoughts!! Though to me I couldnt survive this world with out ice-cream

[Bex80]

Yep, here's my thought process:

Wow that little girl was actually born a boy? She looks so happy I'm happy for her ^^...  I'll never get to experience growing up as a girl tho.. and I'll never pass as well either having gone through boy puberty and all. Now I feel kind of sad and envious, oh no! I'm being envious of this courageous little girl now I'm a bad person as well...I'm gonna go eat some ice cream.

Rinse and repeat

^ This and Ben & Jerry's cookie dough for me. If only it would go to my hips!

[auburnAubrey]

Envy is relative.  I know a girl who transitioned young, and she wishes she waited until she was older..... while I, of course, wish I did it when I was younger.  We had a great chat of all the differences...... and we both got to see a different view point.

Everyone has that envy, in some form.  The "wishes" of what we could have done, could have been, etc.  It's unfortunately, always a comparison.  If we stop comparing ourselves to others, or others to us, it will naturally go away.

It's weird, because we fight to be the gender we wish to be..... not knowing what it would be like.  Then, when we're there, we have to learn about ourselves all over again, in a sense.  Then, a different set of "wishes" comes in.

Honestly, it comes down to loving and accepting ourselves as we are, whatever state of transition we are in, and letting go of the other stuff.  And remember, while there will always be people who are younger, who can easily afford transition, who are prettier (or more handsome), who's friends or work accept them more........  There will also be those who have less than us.  We are to them, what they aspire to be.

Acceptance, and letting go, are keys to peace.

Come back from a long hiatus from here, and post deep thoughts.........  it's just so me, isn't it? 

[Elspeth]

Being trans is almost like the final frontier. It's one of the ultimate taboos in society. If I could wish anything for the future generations it would be that they learn to love themselves and not depend on the acceptance of others.

Please don't view this as your failure. You didn't create the society that considers this taboo. The failure is society's and with any luck and some actual objective research and growing visibility, over time I think there's a good chance it will change, not soon enough for all of us, but as others have said, mostly I'm happy that more kids are able to transition before the worst of the psychic damage has been done by a system that used and abused us for so long. Progress is slow, but it has happened in my lifetime, and at some point that progress will even be obvious to cisgendered people, who may see how our being demonized has affected their own freedom of expression and abilities to choose their own paths.