Hi Crystal,
Another big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Lots of things to navigate through this labyrinth you're in. Baby steps and just asking questions (we never tire of them) is always a good start. Everyone starts from a different place, so just be yourself, and everything will be fine.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine