Hey, I haven't been posting as much as of lately a lot of changes going around, some for better, some for worse. I won't bog you down with all of the specifics, I'll just give you a brief timeline.
Things That Have Happened:
- Became involved with long time crush
- I come out to him
- He swears time and time again, after avoiding my messages and finding excuses not to see me, that he wasn't in favor of me transitioning, but he supported me and it didn't bother him.
- I ignore him for about three days
- He finally admits to me that he was wierded out by me
- I break up with him
- He offers to buy me a binder as a olive branch
Things That Are To Happen:
- Going with my best friend Charlie (the only other one I'm out to) upstate to Albany to present a bill in a program called Youth and Government, that might get the chance to pass in the state government
- Getting an actual binder
Now with the last one, yes my ex offered to buy me one, but I refuse to take it, might be insane, and my damn pride holding me hostage. My opinion is I want to be as independant as possible from this person who had lied to me multiple times and held prejudices against me. What is your take on it?
My friend Charlie has been helping me alot, trying to figure out ways to help me get the binder. He has used a binder before because he is slightly overweight, so he is helping me pick out brands and what to look for.
Anyways, I also plan on crossdressing up there, that is why it is so crucial for me to get a binder. I have tried giveaways and charities, and no one, except one person to inform me the giveaway was over, has made any contact with me one way or another. So I jave given up on the charity of others.
-Ray
