I'm looking for a realistic "play" device, that is also insertable. Something like FeelDoe RealDoe but not as large, and not hard since I hear Tantus has extremely firm silicone that many find uncomfortable. Is there any other device like this one the market? Using toys that just sit on the pelvis are ok sometimes, but most times it just reminds me that I'm using a strap on for something I lack. I feel like something that goes inside might feel more like it's part of me. Preferably something silicone but at this point anything that isn't jelly and looks realistic instead of being different crazy colors or non phallic shapes is fine.
Edit - I need something I can buy in the U.S., possibly would consider Canada if no U.S. options are available, due to shipping costs and concern about packages outside the U.S. or maybe even Canada getting lost.