Hello and thank you Inenodok, That is good advise, to set new goals and work to achieve them. New years I think I have 3 goals:
Lose 30 pounds (go modified keto), Jan 1.
Start going to places I like to go to (museums, institutes, parks and ranges). If I meet someone all the better.
Cut and color my hair in April, modified blond

Investigate some sort of schooling in an area that I am interested in.
Dena, thanks for your support. My voice continues to improve and the pain is gone. My incision has some minor scabbing that still needs to fall off. I think after that I will get some silicone scar material to reduce the scar. I really do not like the thought of a scar there but in order to have the operation I had no choice.
I am locked out of the old lower voice. I definitely notice a change and the first two weeks my voice got horse when I used. It still gets horse when I speak after a while but there is no pain. I have been told that my pitch is a bit higher and that there is something else different. My voice is lighter. I think in 4 or so weeks it will be close to how it will be from the operation. I can not raise my pitch or use vocal power for 4 more weeks. I need to schedule voice therapy at Dr. Sataloff's office. Perhaps I will go back to Renee Blaker for voice therapy. If I am not satisfied I will go back for a glottoplasty. I have been recording my voice every day or so. In the morning my pitch is higher then as I use it it may have a slight crack and be a little lower in pitch. When I speak, to me, I do not recognize my voice, it sounds very different. When I hear my voice it sounds different.
Hi Laurie, I think you nailed it. It is about companionship. I have a trans friend at work and his wife offered to take me out to bars where there is a good probability of meeting someone. I have hesitation in meeting someone. One thing is STD's the other is meeting a person that is not nice. You only find out after a while. I guess you can only find out if you put yourself out there. Then there are all the insecurities of being trans and still in transition. My hair is getting better but still needs time for round 2 grafts to grow. I feel awkward and not particularly attractive. My confidence is something I am working on too.