Dena, you are 100% correct, it was not in my head.
My wife did not cry or get angry. She perhaps has tolerated that I am going to be me.
My daughter was going back to school and came over and said you need a hug, then we hugged. That was the 1st time she initiated a hug. I had tears in my eyes.
FFS update
I had a bunch of FFS procedures. One was lower blepharoplasty. I still have dissolving stitches in my lower eye lids (in my ear canal opening too). Excess skin was removed and where the upper and lower lid come together is where the excess skin was removed. On my right eye there must have been more skin removal than the left eye. Anyhow it is irritating when I blink.
My upper lip was shortened and fat injected. There is some minor pain when I smile.
Inside my mouth where my mandible and chin were accessed still have dissolving sutures and hurt when I eat and touch. The mandible is swollen.
My temples are swollen and hurt to the touch. The forehead stich line has some periodic pain.
Lower chin is numb and tight.
I had a lot of stiches removed from the back of my head left and right and that has relatively no pain.
I have been back on hrt for 24 hours.
I sound different but then opening my mouth more than an inch hurts.
ps. I lost 12 pounds in the 8 days since the surgery. I guess it is the Spiegel diet
pps. The left side of my face mandible and chin had more work them my right side. There is significantly more bruising on the left side. My mandible and left far cheek area were different then the right side. I could see it but it was subtle. I could feel the difference in the mandible before the operation. When the swelling goes down I can not wait to see how the doctor did.