I had a date (with boy
)
We have written a lot, I awaken darker side of him
and he like it
When we had date I was nervous like never (my first date as me and I never had real date in past life), it take long time until I calm down and can at least little talk
Today five days after date we clear how it is between us, he want softer girl, I'm too much at dark side and like brutal humor so I'm not what he looking for, but still want to stay in contact, be friends and go to some concerts and so. And maybe join to planned Visual Kei band. So in overall it finish great, I'm not ready to have intimate relationship and as pre-op it will be almost impossible to do something.
Result is:
I make a friend and maybe we cold try something again in future, because he is now changing from proper boy to underground dark creature
Boost my confidence, and help my social phobia, I can talk with boy and be taken like girl (he don't know about my "problem")
