I've been lurking here for awhile, but it's time to say hi. I was hesitant at first but I recently overcame what felt like my biggest obstacle - coming out to my husband. So now I feel like I can say it - I'm an FTM transsexual, and the transition ball is rolling!
I'm in my late twenties, and I just got out of the military last year after nine years of service. Now I'm going back to school for a second degree and a new career.
I don't know if I'll post much (I'm much more of an info sponge than a contributor), but I would like to, especially since there seem to be many others dealing with a spouse who wants to be supportive but isn't sure how. The other issue I have is that my spouse is still in the military, and I'm quite concerned that my transition could have a negative effect on his career and benefits.
I'm also in the camp that didn't know at a young age. Just lots of random issues throughout my life that have culminated in severe depression and a lot of marital issues, always leaving me wondering 'what is WRONG with me?' I knew nothing of transsexuals. Didn't know female-to-male transsexuals existed, and especially didn't understand that they could be gay. One frustrated google search of 'why do I feel like a gay man trapped in a woman's body' eventually led me here, and as I read through other people's experiences I was completely floored. I felt I could have written any number of them, and suddenly so many of my phobias and anxieties and habits made a lot more sense.
So that's me in a nutshell. Oh, and I'm in Montana. Not the most LGBT friendly place. Any one else in Big Sky country?
Anyways, I look forward to chatting, and hopefully to figuring out what to do next.
Cheers,
Ford (lol, is it obvious I don't have a name picked out?)
