Can you still call it full time at 23 /24 hours?

[Apples Mk.II]

Good Morning.

It's been some time since I picked my date to go Full Time: September. The summer has been chose as a transitional period for me. I alternate male and female days, first once per week and adding more days as the time goes by, The exceptions that force me into male mode can be my family, or having a rough physical based work day in which the female presentations causes me a lot of movement problems.


By the time I go full time I will be 4 months into HRT. Currently it's only 2 and a half. Small breast buds and a lightly better skin in my hands but little else is going on for now. I haven´t even done any voice training (I'm having a turbinoplasty on 9 days, after it is healed I'd probably start). Save for the work on dressing putting make up and adapting movement, I'm still physically male. And that is a problem...



Here comes it: The gym. It is something I'm not giving up, and I need it. THe problem is that it is the only place where I can't function with a costume. I can't wear a wig, breastforms or tuck while running, and obviously my genitalia is perfectly visible on tights. The gym days are pretty much the worst, always forcing me into male mode. I won't wear nail polish there, can't put make up, etc etc etc. And another problem is that I am close to saying farewell to showering there due to my breast development.

I have thought a lot about how to make the two things work, gym and female days while on full time. The solution is pretty much showering at home or at work. The morning exercise days I'll leave the gym with all the sweat, and get changed at work. I will be carrying even the make up and a mirror with me. For the evenings, it will be a matter of removing the costume and make up at work, change into my gym clothes and later shower at home.

That's the dreaded time. I can't hide my anatomy, and I will still need to store my backpack in the men's area, since I will be displaying a genuine schlong. Sure, I will be wearing a female sweater and pirate pants over the tights when I am outside, but that will be the 1 hour of the day I can't present as female ( or at least until things improve over time).


How do you see it? Can still be considered full time despite this quirk?

[Cindy]

I transitioned at the gym. I want from looking like a guy, to looking like a guy in girl clothes to being me.

OK now I wear skin tight lycra show I can show off the bod before I was comfy doing that I wore female track pants and tops that were baggy enough to cover bra etc.

Virtually all my work outs are cardio and strength training using free weights and machines. so I'm mixing with the guys all the time. For the most part they ignore me. I had one incident when a newbie called me a poof or some such thing. I just walked away, next thing I knew he was taken away by two of the really big guys who I've never talked to. He has never returned.

There are two badged Hells Angels who work out in the same area, they call me Miss.

Oh and the guys help me load weights on machines as I  no longer have the upper body strength that I had prior to HT.

To be honest, like 99% of my fears it has been a none issue.

I did ask about showers, I asked the front desk people if it was OK to use the female change and showers. Their reply was why the heck would I want to use the male? This was after HT had its magic effect so I had obvious breasts etc.

Oh now a days I wear skin tight lycra tracks and a crop top sports support bra. I did this deliberately to ensure no one had doubts about my identity.

I don't wear wigs, I've had my hair styled etc and now it is neck length and coloured auburn-red. So I bear little resemblance to the short grey haired person who used to use my gym membership

Finally, if you can keep up the gym work, it has really helped me in many ways.

Hugs

Cindy

[MariaMx]

Seems to me to be more of a technical issue so I'd say you're full time.

Personally I considered myself to be truly full time the day I threw out all my male clothing.

[Apples Mk.II]

Yeah...

Friends I haven't seen in more than one year saw me yesterday in girl's clothing, with all the wig, prosthetics, etc. They could not match me anymore to the old memory they had of me. Yet at 16:00 of the next day, I reverted to guy mode. Threw the breast forms and wig, removed the make up, and put short fitness pants, surf t-shirt and a a bandanna covering my head. They had it so difficult to recognise me now... For them the girl image was the natural one.


Today I also gave up on trying to go in "full girl mode". Girl jeans, a tight t-shirt, basic make-up (concealer and foundation) and a backpack loaded with photography material. I don't enjoy it, and I hate that to really appear as a girl instead of an effeminated man requires me to rely on all short of attachments. Despite my hair being close to touch the shoulders (but with a temples problem), tiny stage II breast buds. If I were to put a dress I would look like... A man in a dress. The wig really helps that much to change my aspect and mask a bit my factions.

I so much hate to be in the middle... Best thing would be to let things flow, but...