Hi and welcome! I'm a newbie too, but let me be one of the first to say greetings
and we are glad to have you here.
I identify a lot with what you are saying I think. I have a lot of 'feminine' desires
and inclinations, but although I really love everything about women's styles, I
don't think I would be comfortable presenting as a woman all the time because
that's not really who I am 100% either. I feel like somewhere in between - I
would love to have long beautiful hair, no body hair, great skin, and be sort of
androgynously good-looking, but I don't have any serious desire to have breasts,
for instance. But enough about me.

I think there are a wide range of viewpoints represented here, so whereever you
find yourself on the gender spectrum (or rainbow, maybe?

) this is a good
place to let your feelings and thoughts out and find support. Hope you are able
to find some of that here.
Hugs, Julia Erin