Since this involves hormone treatment i figured i would put it here tho it does involve a wider range as well.i hope this does not confuse anyone so ill be as clear as i can,its more of a *wow this is whats happened to me,what about you?* thread.I knew who i was ment to be and why i started transition,the inside did not match my outside but since T,i have noticed things even with my own body that makes me go *wait..does my body feel it was ment to be male as well?* .I was on it for awhile and honestly,i felt better then i ever have.i even slept like a rock,on cloud
9.My body did not act up as it normally would (i would have sever digestive issues while on the womans nature.things just out of place everywhere) it was like my body was fighting back against me in protest.I had no issues either sexually and even became better at it,felt more like i had the drive and want,acting on it was a must or else my body felt like (i swear no lie) got the blues *catch my drift* my body felt lighter,like a huge weight was taken off my shoulders,the mental change was there as well (out look and self esteem) but when i had to stop T due to money issues,everything went down hill.I had NO sex drive at ALL,none and even the idea made me sick,i became sick physically and mentally,the self esteem dropped back down,i started to care what others thought,its like when on T i didnt even care about all those things because (inside AND outside -while on T only tho) i was me.the strength was gone,the drive for anything was
gone.it honestly felt like 2 people,one *the one i want and relate too* had finally taken over,i was happy and on top of the world but when the other took over,i lost all hope..i know the hormones make such changes but for me its so much more then that,i guess its hard to explain.also my sleep is effected when not on T,i rarely sleep and obsess over the smallest things.Has anyone else dealt with such things? like if your not taking them then your whole being (mind,body,soul and even heart) all fight back as if to say *this isnt me and im not going to accept it* ? If you have dealt with the same thing on E then please comment.I am freaking awesome now that i was able to get the money needed for my T and i am back to normal
(Please note: this thread is not for promoting self med'ing,if you are new and not sure what that means then please look it up.)
