I need help!

[BnP1987]

I was searching for therapists through google and came across this site. I recently came out to my mom about being transgender and told her yesterday I want to go through the transition. She's happy for me, because she believes this will make me happy. I've suffered from depression my whole life, and attempted suicide for thef irst time in the 5th grade. I've never felt like I belong, and just 4 years ago is when I discovered the transgender subject. I never realized what it was until one day I Googled "Male trapped in female body" thats when I learned all about transgender, and everything inside of me was screaming "That's you!" So, now that I've told my mom, (still need to tell my dad and would like to have more facts before i deal with that) where do I go from here? Because of my depression, i've pretty much iscolated myself from the world and have no one to go to to talk about all of this, let alone have anyone to give me advice. Everyone looks at me and sees this beautiful girl, and i'm sick of it. Even with short hair and boy clothes (i'm little and drown in mens clothing), i still get guys getting all flustered and googly eyed around me. I can't take much more. Please help 

[spacial]

Can you say which part of the world you're in? Note, not your adress or even home town, just general area and country.

I hope you know that you're not alone. Many of us has similar or different stories, but all have a similar outcome, at one point at least.

It sounds like your first stop is to a therapist, but to advise you on that we need to know, generally, where you are.

In the mean time, welcome.

[Rowan Rue]

You've already taken the hardest step, the fact that your Mom supports you is huge. 
Really the next thing to is just keep educating yourself and plan out a transition timeline for yourself.
Just remember, the only "right" way to transition is the way YOU choose.
You'll want to find a doctor who is familiar with trans issues and you'll need a letter from a therapist for top surgery if that's what you want to do.
I don't know how old you are or which/what part of the country your in but there are loads of resources on this site to point you to services in your area.
As to having to deal with unwanted attention because you look like an attractive girl,  know that most of what makes a person attractive is pretty independent of their sex.  The people who were hot in the bodies they were born with tend to look really hot after they transition too.  Just try to think of it as money in the bank
Don't panic and remember to breath.  What you're going through is not easy but you're going to be fine.

[Devlyn]

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Thank you.

[BnP1987]

Thank you! I'm in SW Michigan. I'd be willing to travel if need be. If you know of any good therapists in this, or surrounding states, that would be great. I'm 25 and want full transition. Would like to have at least one child of my own biologically before transition, but have no interest in carrying it. As odd as it sounds, my sister is willing to carry for me, but I will need to figure out how to fertilize my eggs and get them implanted into her. Any and all information/advice you have will help me tremendously. Thanks again for taking time and showing concern!

[LordKAT]

A fertility clinic will help with the egg transfer thing, just stay out of any ministry ones. As to information, read everything you can here and from other "informed" sites. Most of us have lived lonely lives and struggled to get anywhere. You are not alone in many of your feelings or thoughts. Too many ppl on the planet for that to happen.

Finding a therapist to help guide your way can be challenging and is often the first step. A good one can help you deal with the good and bad as well as dealing with family, work/school and friends. There are lists on this site and others of possible gender therapists near you.

Welcome to Susan's neighbor, I'm in Wisconsin myself.

[spacial]

Thank you. SW Michigan is quite adequate.

I know we have other members who live in that area and hopefully, when one of them notices this thread, they will offer suggestions.

It's important because each area is just so different.

Now, I'm pretty sure the process with begin with a period of counseling from a recognized therapist. That's probably your first port of call.

So, I did a Google search using the terms South West Michigan Gender Therapy. I found a number of places that seem, on appearance, credable.

http://www.transgendermichigan.org/transpages/mhp.html

This one also looks good: http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_results.php?state=MI&spec=187

I post that as an example. You must, of course, make up your own mind.

Next you will need to decide how you intend to pay for it. Does your health insurance cover this, for example.

[BnP1987]

Thanks to all of your replies. Jill, special thanks to you for going through the trouble of searching for me! I will look into those sites, and will try to keep everyone informed. I'm in the process of starting a career, not too sure what type of insurance I'll be dealing with, so we shall see. Either way, my heart is set on this and I'm going to make it happen!