Hiya everyone! I am sort of new here, I hope none of you really mind.

My name is Emi, I was born a male and started questioning who I really was at around age 9.
Ever since than I have been on the fence about my gender. I know deep down somewhere that the truth is that I really want to be a girl.
Only recently have I started to come more outwards to people about it because it was slowly killing me deep down.
I have always enjoyed wearing woman's clothing and wearing makeup. I would consider myself to be really feminine.
One of my biggest problems though is that I will go though these "phases" that might last a day or two where I really want to be a girl really badly, and than the next few days I would not care that much weather I was or was not a girl.
I really don't know what I should do or where I should start. I really want to seek out gender therapy but I don't know what kind of therapist to look for.
I am just overall a giant confused mess and would really appreciate some help and outside opinions on all of this.
Thankies