O-kay, we've all faced it from one time to another but I'm curious to know if others have had similar experiences. About three years ago I finally admitted to myself I am transgendered, O-kay, that's a start, I then started to slowly talk to friends and come out to each one in turn. I had built up a small little core of "understanding" friends who I could trust and I was almost to the point of being able to finally tell my wife. Then I learned that some of these "understanding" friends I knew I could trust were talking behind my back and saying some pretty nasty things as well as the old "Oh that poor woman, she doesn't even know her marriage is going to be destroyed..." All this was focused around 2 individuals but they were encouraging it amongst our other friends. I decided I would cut all ties with these people at that time, some of them I had been closer than siblings, I dated one in HS and the other I had one of the deepest relationships two men could ever have and still be straight, (OK he's gay,). I felt hurt and betrayed and I was terrified of coming out then, I went back into this little hole and even stopped going to a TG support group. I built up this wall of denial again and figured I could simply man up and bear with it the rest of my life. How wrong I was.
Fear drove me back into the closet and fear built up the denials again. is this a cycle that many have gone through?
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