I confess that I'm stumped over a new development in my relationship issues. I was completely ready to just tough it out and remain friends, but he kept being so close to me and I told him while we were hugging that... well, I said I wanted to kiss him but couldn't because friends don't do that

So what else does he do than pull out of the hug and do it himself, catching me completely off-guard. Which for some reason was like a wrecking ball destroying the wall I had been building. Damn you, overwhelming powers of neurochemistry!
Now I have to either let this be an open relationship or convince him that it's not as good as he thinks it will be because I can't leave.
...Dammit.