I confess, I avoid relationships because I'm so god awful at them. I'm cold and distant with occasional outbursts of desperate and clingy. Real attractive right

I'm terrified that I'll be alone for the rest of my life, and that I'll never get laid again now that I'm out and casual sex is too complicated to be an option. I feel really shallow for saying it, but being alone for the rest of my life sounds a lot more terrible if I'm also not getting laid

It's not that I don't want a relationship, I just get freaked out once I'm in one and I can't make myself act like a normal healthy person