My story: well here we go...growing up i was a tom-boy. Always hung with the boys, played basketball at recess with them. They taught me how to dribble , shoot , throw a football ( better than most boys back then ) and even throw a baseball ( i cam throw faster and with more accuracy than my brothers) . This was during 2-5 grade. Then in 6th grade i switch and started to wear girly clothes just to try it.....i was so uncomfortable but i know how to adapt for something easily, which i did. Then middle school hit i was both tom-boy and girly. played ice hockey and lacrosse. Then high school came around and i went back to where i felt the most comfortable, in baggy clothes. I played Varsity Ice Hockey, Varsity Lacrosse and Varsity XC. I started to develop feeling for girls in middle school all the way through high school but still was attracted to guys and dated guys. I came out to my parents as "lesbian" 2 years ago now or around there. I was living with my ex at the time and came back home to live and go to college. Thats when i came out as gay to my family but also came home looking VERY different. I cut all my hair off before i came back home and was a butch lesbian . I started to really wear boy clothes and get very short hair cuts. I have dated couple of girls and right now with a very special woman who is in the AirForce
She is my world. We have been dated for 8 months now. I just recently told her about wanted to go on T and she supports me 100% . Prior to telling her that i told her i wanted top surgery so it kinda just fit well. Growing up i always wanted to be a boy, i knew i wasn't from the outside. i competed with them and won usually but until they hit puberty then they all started to beat me at stuff. When i got my "budds" when growing boobs, it hurt so bad and i was so ashamed and did want to wear a bra. I had to after a while cause they finally grew to where i needed one. I always wanted a beard and deep voice and my younger brother (19) just got his fully beard and he looks older than me. I'm 22 and i look like im 12 no matter what i do. I'm so jealous of all three of my brothers, they all are 6 feet and have beard and look older. I do how every have a already some what high T count because i have long hair on my face that my barber shaves for me and have couple prickly man hairs on my chin that i pull out, i also shave the hair that is over my lip. Its all blonde hair so you can't really see it except in the right light. one my good friends is MTF and before i met her i had no idea what Transsexual was. I might have a shot at finally getting the beard i always wanted.
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The other day
Today i got a hair cut because i haven't had one in 4 months and my hair was already 4 ", plus my girlfriend wanted me to get one. When i got home my parents ( mostly my mom) were yelling at me " what the --Censored Word-- did you do to your hair?! What are you thinking?!...." etc My brother who is 23 also said " you look like an idiot". My mom hates that i;m gay, my brothers are fine and my dad doesn't like it but he doesn't yell at me or bully me like my mom does. If i ever came out to them and told them i wanted to start T, i know they would throw me out of the house.I only have 2 more years of college left then i want to move to Texas and be with my Girlfriend. I hate living here and getting picked on by my mom. When ever she screams at me for cutting my hair it makes me want to do something even more drastic just to urine her off way more....im a rebel at heart haha.
If you have any question , feel free to ask. I'm open about things.
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Last night
Hey everyone,
So i havent had a hair cut in 4 month right, and my parents hate that i cut all my hair off two years ago. My girlfriend wanted me to get one and i was way over due for one anyways ha. I got a little differnt style then usual, a fade ( you can see the pics in my gallery, not the one with me in a green shirt) So i come home and what happens, my mom starts yelling " What the --Censored Word-- did you do to your hair...etc" She then is peed for the whole night.
Tonight i was eating pizza and watching tv and she picks a fight with me again. saying " So where did you get your hair cut?" " Down in the ghetto?"What do you want to do get a sex change??!! ......etc My dad also starts talking crap to so i called my mom an --Censored-- and my dad a coward because i always stick up for him when my mom picks a fight with him but he NEVER backs me up so i called him a coward. He is all peed off and so is my mom. I'm not apologizing either. Ever since i came out as "Gay" my mom bullys me. I'm so sick and tired of it. If my hair being short stirs this much mess then telling them im trans and want to start T would blow the house up jeeez....
They will NEVER support me.I'm so sick and tired of fighting and im 22 now. Why cant they act like grown *** adults.?
Ive been out as gay to them for 2 years now and they still B about my hair cuts when ever i get them, which is like every month and they start big fights and argue.
I can't move out of the house yet , my college is right up the street and i dont make that much to get an apartment yet.
I don't know if anyone else has to go through this crap but this kind of **** makes me want to just kill myself....I hate fighting all the time and getting stressed out living here...
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Landen Scott
