i wondered about something because i keep contradicting myself with where i am in the religion/spiritual realm. i go from not believing in anything to being almost christian...i guess. i most of the time believe that there's something there. i don't know what and i don't really care what anyone wants to call it my mind is really open like that but it's confusing because i can easily believe an atheist's argument against all religion yet easily take to heart what someone says about God and Jesus. one can say "no one can go through life or face even one day alone, if you believe you are alone, life will be so much harder, nearly impossible than if you knew (this God entity) was always with you everything would be like following a flow. effortless." that makes sense. but where is this God? what is it? it's some invisible unprovable creator? your supposed to just believe it's there and let a book tell you what is real, how things, life , people are supposed to be, what happened and what didn't. everyone has a different opinion and I've seen soooo many of the wrong kind of religious people and what they've said to those in the LGBTQ community, even to those working in a job they don't want you to work in, or you're marrying, dating someone they don't think is right for you on and on and on even to their own kids and use the book that was written a few centuries ago in a completely different time by whoever it was, probably some random person who felt like dictating people because there's no proof on any of that. and it's all over every form of media. i could probably never get along with 99.9999% of anyone claiming to be religious because of all the anger, hate, prejudice I've seen. yes there are some, well o.k a lot that have spirituality that actually treat ALL people as they want to be treated but compared to everyone?
what kind of religion is out there where you believe whatever is. is. everything that breathes, lives, grows no matter what it/they look, sound, act like has a spirit, deserves love, equal treatment in home, law, everywhere and you don't have to say God. is that buddism? or i guess i can just say I'm spiritual without any direction because i can't believe that the whole universe and all life in it is here on coincidence. maybe but i kind of have trouble grasping that, i believe that maybe every single living creature be it plant, insect, animal or person has a purpose. but i don't believe in any of the bible stories.
haha confusing. is anyone else like this spiritual/religion wise?