Going to the Beach and Wondering if I would Receive a Lot of Insults

[Brayden]

Spring break is coming up in a couple of weeks and I am going to a beach that is a nature preserve so it shouldn't be nearly as busy as Daytona or miami or anything.
I am a freshman in college and after everything that I have been through the past two years I just don't give a crap about what I look like or what people think of me.  I go to art school and people just wear anything they want without giving a care in the world.

I just want to go to the beach and feel the sun on my back and solders and jump into the waves feeling the water pass over my skin. I don't want to wear a t shirt or a tank top over a very uncomfortable binder. All I want is to feel the sun and waves on my back for the first time.
I am about 11 months on T.  Do you think that I would get looks and comments from other people if I just wear swim trunks and a women's swim top? or maybe even just a black underworks binder, no one would know the difference. I am comfortable and confidant with myself enough to even consider this, otherwise I would just shutter at the thought.
There are tons of women who wear swim trunks and a top, but being on t and passing completely as male 100% of the time I am a bit worried. I have tried rash guards but I so strongly desire to feel the sun.

Does anyone have any experience with this (negative or positive) or just have any input?

I shouldn't care if someone says anything or looks at me insultingly, I should do what I want but that thought of humiliation and negativity is always present.

[spacerace]

I'd wear the swim top or binder under a rash guard - then once you get there, you can see if you would feel comfortable taking off the rash guard.

it will probably be no big deal and you do what you want, but this way you can make the call at will, and you can always put it back after getting some sun if you feel uncomfortable. 

[Simon]

First you say you don't care what others think but then you say you worry about humiliation. I'm going to be frank about it. You said you pass 100% of the time. People are going to stare or whisper about a man who is wearing something that looks like a sports bra. If the binder you have is the longer one and you have a chest that is flattened well with it then that might work but I myself wouldn't wear anything that showed midriff. 

[Jayr]

First you say you don't care what others think but then you say you worry about humiliation. I'm going to be frank about it. You said you pass 100% of the time. People are going to stare or whisper about a man who is wearing something that looks like a sports bra. If the binder you have is the longer one and you have a chest that is flattened well with it then that might work but I myself wouldn't wear anything that showed midriff.

Exactly what I was thinking.

I myself, would be asking why a man is wearing a bikini top.
Probably end up giggling/laughing thinking that is what the guy wants,
I would think he's doing a dare or a prank, looking for attention and making others laugh.
Just my thought, sorry dude.

[Beth Andrea]

Exactly what I was thinking.

I myself, would be asking why a man is wearing a bikini top.
Probably end up giggling/laughing thinking that is what the guy wants,
I would think he's doing a dare or a prank, looking for attention and making others laugh.
Just my thought, sorry dude.

Just fyi...some "men" might be MTF.

[Jayr]

Just fyi...some "men" might be MTF.

I know.

Not going to derail the thread though explaining myself.
Just use common sense.

[tomthom]

yeah, let's not get into petty spats in our own community over nothing.

anyway, back on topic, the rash guard seems to be the best option really. test the waters a bit.

[Jayr]

Is your chest small?

Cause if you pass 100% you could just go topless and if someone says anything,
you tell them you have gynecomastia.

But I doubt anyone woud come up too you and say s**t.

If you don't pass or don't have a small chest though,
I wouldn't recommend you doing this.

Just out of curiosity, has anyone ever tried that? o:

[AdamMLP]

Try looking for a beach that isn't used at all if you can. There's a beach here that I went to because I remembered it from my childhood and wanted to go back but had only just got the chance, I went there and found that coastal erosion had left it much harder to get down to than before - after already driving down tiny country roads - and there was no one there. Look on a map and see if you can find a spot of beach with no roads or houses by it and see if you could walk down the coast to it a bit so you're alone. I went topless on my little bit of beach and it was just like being 4 years old and able to now worry about what's socially acceptable to do with my body by female standards although I'm male, brilliant!

If that's not an option then I'd go all out and tart it up to make it look deliberate, pink trunks, pink bra, maybe some temp hair dye even and if anyone asks it's a dare.