Thank you everyone for the advice, zoloft I have been on and took myself off before so I know how to get my self off of it, shouldnt be a problem.
now the norco that is a different thing as I am positive it is whats effecting my sleep, if I do not take it I have the night terrors and stay iin a state between sleep and nightmare state untill I take it.
The pains I have are because of digeneratiive disc disease/scoliosis/sciatica/O.R. - today alot of my pains started coming back

I think because I am becoming more mobile that the pain is starting to return.

I need to have surgery on my back/spine but curently that is a high risk proposistion, so now it's all a waiting game, I hope when I have this perticular surgery than I can get off more than just the norco....
aand in the mean ttime I need to get over my fear

I can go have grs but when I am faced with a 13 hour spinal surgery... I am very unasure/afraid

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but all in all I do love my life now, just wish I didnt have to face such problems

Thanks again everyone