I just. ugh. I've always been extremely time concious, and I know I'm young at 20, but I just want to go a damn hour without thinking about this. I want something to finally be underway and working towards this whole crazy thing already.
That and it's hard to focus on school when all you can think of is being a girl. That and my teacher questioned why I drew a female figure from the male model we had today. Yeah it's that pervasive.