Guess who's fresh out of the psych ward?

[J.T.]

Don't give up, things will turn.  Your mom is probably just going through stages of grief right now (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance).  You've now been diagnosed, she can't deny it forever.

Hang in there.

[Dennis]

What ht and Renae said: hang in there, things will change and suicide is a much too permanent solution. You deserve the opportunity to live as you want to live and you'll deny yourself that if you do anything drastic.

If you need to reach out, do so.

Dennis

[cindianna_jones]

Lance,

Yes, many of us have been in the exact same situation you are in.  We have made it. You can too.  Really.  Your mom will have a hard time.  How long did it take for you to come to terms with this thing?  It wasn't overnight was it?  So, give her some time.

And if you ever need a shoulder, we are here.  Make sure to post here first when you are feeling like doing something you'll regret.

Cindi

[Ell]

Turns out that's what managed to convince my mom we needed to do something about me being trans. They diagnosed me with GID and I got on anti-d's. They discharged me and my first appointment with the gender therapist is June 12th. My mom is starting to accept me now and learning what GID really is and we agreed that she'd let me change my name to what she would have named me if I'd been born genitically male, Lance.
Matt/Lance

This sounds to me like you've made a lot of progress, especially the part about getting a therapist. and please be patient and kind to yourself.

[zombiesarepeaceful]

Yeah but she's going back on it all now. I understand I'm 'breaking her heart'. I don't know if she'll really let me change my name before I'm 18. I know these meds aren't helping cuz I feel a little better then I get like my old self again. Sorry for that post. I get pretty low alot. I don't have the balls to kill myself, anyhow.

Lance

[Melissa-kitty]

Keep at it, Lance. Persistence really pays off with depression treatment. Keep making noise. Tell the doc that you are not consistently feeling better. The dosage can be changed, or the med changed altogether. Same with the gender issues. Keep at it. Things will work out for you well, I bet!
Blessings, Tara

[Renae.Lupini]

Yeah but she's going back on it all now. I understand I'm 'breaking her heart'. I don't know if she'll really let me change my name before I'm 18. I know these meds aren't helping cuz I feel a little better then I get like my old self again. Sorry for that post. I get pretty low alot. I don't have the balls to kill myself, anyhow.

Lance

Cheer up dude, you have made more progress before turning 18 than most of us did in our gender journeys. Being a teenager sucks, that is just how life goes. One thing you may want to try is just talking to your mother. Not all about transitioning either. Tell her how it makes you feel when she guilt trips you or doesn't listen to what you say. I know that talking about emotions and feelings is not a "guy" thing to do but it is a human thing to do. Calling your mom a bitch and blocking her out of everything doesn't solve a thing. Because of this, my mother and I didn't speak for almost a decade. That is ten years we can't ever get back either.

Take a deep breath and reaffirm your love to your mother. This little thing will go a long way.