Hi! Its me Danyelle, my real name is Daniel, (but I like Danyelle more). I am new here and this is my first post. I am 22 and am from the St. Louis area. I am pretty much lost in all of this having only recently begun to understand what Transsexual and Transgender means. I have known that there was and still is something different about me from a very young age probably around 6 years old, I started crossdressing around the 3rd grade. I did all the things little boys do, like play in the mud and whatnot, however I played with my sister and her dolls about as much. Who I am pretty much goes against every thing my parents raised me to be, being that I am physically male, so basically my body doesn't fit with the way I feel, my demeanor and who I believe I really am inside. I am so lost trying to figure it all out and trying to take the appropriate steps to solve this puzzle so that all the pieces of me are in the correct places. I have been approaching everything with an open mind and putting my intellect out front in order to fully understand the depth of all this. I come from a very conservative family, my brother knows about me because I have talked to him about it trying to seek an outside perspective on who I am. I told my brother that I crossdress and believe that I should be female on the outside and not just on the inside. My brother gave me a look of utter shock, and then sat down and just plainly said "You are still my sibling, no matter what or who you are. So this changes nothing between us". My jaw just dropped and I broke down crying, mostly because I was so relieved as I was expecting to be punched in the jaw. Sorry for the "novel" like post, I have a lot to get oh yeah, any one have any advice on seeking the right Therapist?? Ima gonna finish this post later because I just got the urge to take a hot bath! Buh bye! <3 Danyelle
