Just emailed my mum

[Leo.]

Finally just sent 'the' email to my mum. Hovered over the send button for quite awhile.. Now its done I feel strangely scared rather than relieved. Not that I expect it to be taken badly by something they told me before. It was my sister that actually said it but she still agreed, basically 'I dont care if you want to be a bloke' cant remember exactly after that but same lines of it not changing anything. Just a fear of the unknown I guess, maybe I dont know how things might change etc.. Im not really sure why I feel this way about it given what they said before (that was like 2-3 years ago now)

I just said everything in one go as Im not the type to be able to suddenly bring stuff up in person, I have communication problems in that I find it really hard to talk to people. Typing is my way of communicating so email was the best option for me. I mentioned about my girlfriend too to get everything out at once. She knows everything and accepts me so they cant say anything about that. Could maybe have waited to mention that but because of my talking issues and randomly bringing things up it was just easiest for me to do it all now

Could easily have continued to put this off though there is never a 'right time' to bring it up, I just wanted it over with. Guess it feels weird now its 'finalised'. Its sent now and I cant undo it. Can only hope it goes the way Im expecting it to.. I dont know if she'll even reply to it or not. Im going home tomorrow for the weekend so she might just want to wait til then (why I wanted to do it tonight, Thursday is the best day to as Im home next day) In the mean time Im going to be feeling like this until I know everything is ok. The worst I could get really is 'dont come home tomorrow' that has crossed my mind.. Im just the type to keep everything to myself and never say anything so it might be a surprise in that way too that I finally did it

[spring0721]

Leo, that's awesome that you had the courage to do this. I'm happy for you & will be hoping your mom responds well to the email! Good luck

[LeosGirl]

Honey, we'll be having our daily instant message chat in a few minutes anyway, but I just wanted to say now that I am so, SO proud of you for doing this! Your strength seriously inspires me. I truly hope your mum still understands and can see the courage it took you to take such a huge step. I love you more than words can even say and you will ALWAYS have my support, no matter what. *BIG hugs*

[Leo.]

Thanks spring, took me long enough. Wish I had done it years ago but better late than never I guess

Aw thanks babe. I did it for you too. Wasnt sure if you'd see this before I told you or not but there we go. Wish I could talk easier though and this might have been out a long time ago. That means more to me than anything to have you through this. Wish I didnt have to put you through it though. I would do anything for you too. Your support has done so much for me. I probably wouldnt be at this stage now if it wasnt for you. Same goes to you of course


I get myself worried for no reason. I got a reply from her:


'Is that all? Honestly, no big deal. Just wish you'd mentioned it sooner. Have had suspicions for years. Think probably Emma has too and will make no difference to her either. You're still the same person inside and we love you  regardless. All I want is for you to be happy and be true to yourself. Life's too short. Just talk about things more with me or Emma. I would have been more worried if you had been talking about quitting uni! See you tomorrow'


Yes that is all lol. I wish I had too but what can I do now.. Least Im not putting it off anymore, its done. Now I know its ok I feel alot better. They at least realise its not changing who I am which alot of people seem to think it does (never understood that) Im still the same, I just want the outside changed to be what it was meant to be. Im glad its out now and I dont need to worry about any of this again

[Tristan]

Good for you. It takes alot to tell your parents and in the end I know she will be happy you felt close enough to her to include her in the truth and the life of the real you

[LeosGirl]

It's not a single problem, my love. You are an amazing man and I'm so happy to be with you. I know you did, and I can't tell you how much it means to me. Hmm, well I may stalk you a little here, I admit it..  lol, not really, just interested in what you have to say. I need to start posting more, and I will. Maybe, but it's finally done now and you did a wonderful job. I'm glad, I'd never have it any other way. I know you would and that means the world to me. You're my rock and I'm yours. Aww, you saying that makes me so happy. Well thank YOU for that. I'm really pleased that your mum said what she did and is taking everything so well! Like I said, this makes me feel much better about having her for a future mother in law.. 

[spring0721]

Leo, this is great news she took it so well. Clearly your mom loves you and just cares that you live a happy and fulfilled life, which it sounds like you're doing! Congrats to you, your mom, and your girlfriend as this will surely bring your family even closer together