To All Halo, my name is Lawreign (silent G) I live in Brizvegas (as the locals call it) in Australia. I will try to be brief in describing how I got to here. As a toddler I was introduced to the advertising industry as a child model which lasted till I was 9 during that time I helped my mother with hair dressing, home crafts (artificial flowers, rug making) and at night assisted with the sale of Avon cosmetics. Being the oldest of three sons and a single mother, I developed a strong and lasting maternal nature.
By 10 yrs of age I was cross dressing, (partly mourning my mothers departure but also the personal freedom I felt ) playing out stereotypical role play with my male friend next door who I went to school with, (not advisable, the ridicule of early high school) this excludes the usual X dress ups I'm sure we all did as innocent children. By15 I initiated an afternoon with my weekend drama teacher and didn't even consider that I could try it with a woman i saw no difference. I wanted to find out what this 'sex thing' was all about. (at 14 I'd left school and the step parents to live with my aunty)
Started Uni at 16 and soon came upon a proposal to allow myself to be spanked for a very good wage. I tried to have a couple of straight relationships but only found emotional immaturity. So by the time I was 19 i was in a full time relationship and he introduced me to the Gay Community. OHHH is that what I'm doing, once again I felt that freedom of expression. At 20 I was touring with a theatre company throughout the East coast of Australia. During this time I began looking for larger answers to life than just money, work and love.
At 23 explored the reality of my femininity and at 24 began the gender disphoria program in Melbourne as it was known then and spent the early stages of transition traveling through the neighboring states working in orchards, vineyards, cotton harvesting. Looking back the people I came across in the country were more genuine and less judgmental than "city folk" which i found abruptly when I returned to Melbourne.
So what does a girl do in the big city with no employment opportunities and no where to live ? join an escort agency of course. After about a year I was managing the agency. Success .....? once the promotion came through I use the company limo to visit my father to show how well I was doing, (not a good idea) at least he only yelled alot and threw a tissue box at me because I was crying over his disapproval. The agency closed for legal reasons so worked at a trans brothel until the government closed the "corporate entertainment allowance" tax loop hole.
The next 6 years saw an erosion of my self, working the street, fluctuating accommodation and drugs.
Got away from all that but the damage was done, within 2 years living on my own and the echo of my fathers voice I left the program at 33.
I'll make the rest real quick....Got a straight job got a straight girl had my son (she already had a daughter) tried to make it work, had a break down, separated, maintained a degree of parenting with regular access and the kids have now grown enough that i began to think now where was I ?
I am now 48, I am back on schedule and have been on HRT for the last 13 mths with the blessing of my children my ex and a broad social structure of mainly straight friends. ( Including a Lawn Bowls Club LOL) I intend to be the first Transgender to compete at state level.
I was going to make this brief but after I started trying put things together for reading I realised it's all affirming and it's the conjunction of these events that has brought me to this very happy place that I reside.
Love yourself and others will wish to be with that Love.
To All Halo
Lawreign.
