Way past time, maybe I can move forward this time?

[FrancisAnn]

Always mentally a girl since childhood, however too many T-hormones, etc..... Now in my late fifities & after numerous attempts for a physical change in my body I'm going to try again. 5' 9', medium build, size 10 shoes, small hands, size 9 rings, pretty face, balding hair, decent legs but I have an ugly male body that is for sure. I'll need a lot of work to have a feminine body & face. My last attempt, a year or so ago, the therapist was not excited about my letter. She felt bad but for us "older" MTF, it is difficult to change the body.

I so wish I had changed early in life as a young teenager however there was just not the medical capabilities in those days. My parents, specially my mother knew I was a "girl" but there was not much she could really do to change my body so I grew up as a nice little boy & did boy things. I so wished I could have been a cheerleader in high school & just joined in with all the other girls however as you know I was excluded. I always liked boys & felt good with them, but most though I was homosexual which was not true. I was really a normal "girl" that liked boys/men.

For any younger MTF please do not delay. If you are a "girl" stop the wrong hormones now & start the right hormones asap.

Just venting some. As I guess most of you friends know it is so hard to change our bodies.

Wish me luck fellow girl friends.

[KayCeeDee]

Good luck! And I'm not that far behind you!

[FrancisAnn]

Orihime, Good for you. When you have time I would love to learn more about your life & how the HRT is going. I hope you feel good & positive on your body & mind changes.

I'm going back to my last therapist & follow thru with her for my letter to start HRT fulll strength again. I'm older & not as pretty but better than never I've decided. I always felt & looked my best when on HRT & should have continued years & years ago however my job/parents/etc.. got in the way. I was quite the "looker" in my twenties doing some nightclub drag shows at gay bars. I had a grand time on stage & getting hit on my so many men. 

I'm not sure of the outcome at my age however I need to return to normal & become the most pleasant passable female as humanly possible.

[Joanna Dark]

Good luck Fran! You're right it's never too late. I hope it works out well for you, xoxo.

[FrancisAnn]

Joanna, Thank you. I knew by first grade I was a little girl. I've gotten close to a full time 100% change so many times in my life. I've always been a woman as much as possible outside of work. Hormones feel great & I so miss the feeling of calm. Glad to see that you started. I hope it is going well for your changes???

I almost had my orcie several years ago but for some reason I did not follow thru. This time I need to do this first. There has never been a reason at all to have these things on my body anyway, they did enough damage to my body.

I'm passable when dressed up, but not pretty, feminine enough for full time. I want/need to be a normal woman, 100%. I want/need to be pretty sexy confident in myself.

Anyway, I talk a lot. Thank you for your reply.

A big kiss on the cheek to you girl friend

[Jamiep]

FrancisAnn,

At 71, I thought I was out of luck being in an area that had a lgbt clinic, then one opened up near me last year, I got in touch last fall but there may have been a year wait list. I got a call early January & mentioned to the receptionist that it ws probably too late for me, but she said I think you will find the gender doctor believes otherwise. I went to the Doctor end of January & I should be starting hrt end of April. I am not going to have surgeries. There are others my age that just started. Yoy are 20 years younger than me, so you are not alone. Gender Docs can probably suggest diets. Exercise, even if it is just walking.

Never say never.
Update us. Good luck.
Jamie

[FrancisAnn]

Jamie, thank you. To me growing old as a nice pleasant happy woman that cares for others would be just great! Lots of flowers, roses, work in my garden. I love to tend to my garden & tend plants. I'm in good shape physically, real active.

I want full SRS one day even though my penis is small (good) & with a normal procedure I will have a shallow vagina unfortunately. I'm hetrosexual & enjoy men fully. I hope one day to just be normal with as normal a woman's body as possible.

You take care & thank you for your reply.

[JLT1]

Always mentally a girl since childhood, however too many T-hormones, etc..... Now in my late fifities & after numerous attempts for a physical change in my body I'm going to try again. 5' 9', medium build, size 10 shoes, small hands, size 9 rings, pretty face, balding hair, decent legs but I have an ugly male body that is for sure. I'll need a lot of work to have a feminine body & face. My last attempt, a year or so ago, the therapist was not excited about my letter. She felt bad but for us "older" MTF, it is difficult to change the body.

Difficult - yes, Impossible - no.  I'm in my early 50's.  It takes more exercise, better eating habits and a little more money for surgery (like a hair transplant).  After that, it's much the same.  Bounce your weight - go down 10 then up 10 then down 10 then up 10.   Fat fills in in a female pattern. 

[FrancisAnn]

JTLI, thanks for reply. I hope your change is going well. As with most I should have changed long long ago.

My hair/beard is the real problem. Every time I was close to full time as Francis it seemed my beard grew more, almost impossible to stop, I had electrolsis & laser, etc. early in life. It is thiner however still a beard. I could just cry, it's just so ugly/wrong.

Without facial hair I was completely comfortable & passable as a normal woman. No problems at all otherwise really but it just stopped me cold every time. How embrassing to be on a date with a nice man & by morning I have to "shave". Now the hair is grey so lasers do not work & electrolsis is such a pain/job.

So I'm trying my best, that's all I can do.

Again, thank you & better luck with your changes.

Francis

[FrancisAnn]

Appointment next Wednesday with Therapist that I've met before. She is slow however she is professional & handles some 50-100 TS in her region. I'll slow down, pay her hourly fees & be nicer to secure my letter to restart proper HRT. I sure miss the calming effects of estrogen, can't wait.

Moving forward a little step at a time.

[MaidofOrleans]

I sure miss the calming effects of estrogen, can't wait.

Amen to that.

Don't think I could ever go back.