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Just reached the breaking point with my dad

Started by Darkflame, March 24, 2013, 04:31:32 PM

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Darkflame

I try to be really patient and understanding with my father. He's never really been good at dealing with the whole "change" thing, and me and him haven't had a decent relationship since I was a little kid. So even when he says things that are somewhat insulting, I try to remind myself that it's coming from a place of not understanding and I move on. I try to just not bring up the trans thing at all or make any references to it. Which is pretty difficult when he tries to pry about what's going in my life, when the biggest thing going on in my life is transitioning. So it ended up being brought up today and we had a huge falling out. He made an unnecessary sarcastic jab and it went from there. He won't "take me seriously" because I've "been doing everything in my power to make myself appear sick" since I was fourteen, refusing to hear me tell him that the reason I was acting "sick" (or as more civilized people would say, showing symptoms of mental illness) is because I was miserable in my birth gender, as well as the entirely separate diagnosis of bipolar, which has nothing to do with me being trans  ::)

I'm now estranged from both my parents, and neither of my siblings talk to me for fear of being caught in the crossfire :-\ I kind of feel like telling everyone to screw off and just not deal with people anymore. This is actually firing me up more to go on in transitioning, because I'm done putting other people before myself, any discomfort the people around me have at me living as a man is only a fraction of the discomfort I had trying to be a girl all these years.

Am I being unreasonable? Do I expect too much from people  ??? At least my extended family is being awesome and understanding, so it's not like I have zero support
If I let where I'm from burn I can never return

"May those who accept their fate find happiness, those who defy it, glory"
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Retiku

I don't think you're being unreasonable. I think perhaps your father just does not understand yet, and maybe he never will. Honestly, it is my opinion that if he will not love you, he is not worth crying over. A parent's love should be unconditional, but more often than not, it isn't. Just be who you know you are, and don't let your parents drag you down.
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Blaine

If I were you, I'd let him and everyone one else who has a problem with your transition go and lock the door behind them, at least for a little while. If they decide to come around later, then great. Since you have a stable support system with your extended family it doesn't seem like the people who feel badly toward you or insult you are worth the time or the worry.
I did my waiting! Twelve years of it! In [my head!] Azkaban!
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