I'm just scared now

[Rita]

What I like about things like the sleep they induce at the dentist(gotta do this every time, I freak out), as well as anesthesia which I never had but conceptually understand.

When I do my SRS, it will be like going to sleep, and waking up from a bad dream  It will just happen in what to me will probably feel like seconds.  The only unfortunates will be dealing with the pain your body has been going through but you too high to understand until it wears off.

[calico]

It will just happen in what to me will probably feel like seconds.  The only unfortunates will be dealing with the pain your body has been going through but you too high to understand until it wears off.

exactly, about sums it up, I remember exactly how it worked out too. everyone rushing around you, on one hand they are hooking up a finger monitor and a blood pressure  cuff while someone is attaching heart monitors to you and then the other arm they are hooking up the iv, than in goes the meds and everything goes fuzzy then next thing ya know they are yelling yer name to wake up.

[Rena-san]

I think I got my fear now into words:

How do I know when I wake up that it is real?

I mean, what if I "wake up" but its not a real wake up. Its just my mind manufacturing a reality to please itself. Like I just start living/recovering from the surgery but really I'm still asleep, or in a coma, or dead. This is what I'm afraid of. Waking up but not being awake.

[A]

You could die. That's the difference. Nothing funny about major surgery.

You could die during your sleep too. For what it's worth, I'm sure the risk of being murdered at home, having a car crash into your wall and killing you, dying in a fire, etc. all added up isn't so far from the risk of dying from anaesthesia.

Besides, what's bad about dying during surgery? It's not your fault, and you don't suffer. Personally, if I could pick my way to die, I'd die under anaesthesia, I think.