Since a few months into HRT, it's been decided that I would go full time-ish this summer, gradually, and go REALLY full time in the autumn, when school would begin again. I figured HRT would've had plenty of time to act by then. So my name change is coming up (really quick actually - if I'm right, the letter requiring signature I have a notice for is to say it'll be entirely official in a month), and I've planned to go shopping for clothes this summer.
I'm going to throw everything away, literally. I have nothing worth keeping, except maybe scarves, socks and damaged but still useable sneakers. Even if I were okay with still dressing part-guy as I am right now (which I'm not), everything is either way too loose because of the weight I lost, so damaged I'm already ashamed of wearing them or a combination or both.
But my plans are being challenged by my endo who refuses to increase my dose. My antiandrogen is fine and puts my testosterone down to very low levels, but my estradiol is so weak the most I've seen from it yet is sensitive and slightly changed nipples.
Because of the lack of effects from estradiol, I've thought of postponing full-time. But not only would that put me in the horrible stance of having to buying guys' clothes again, but it would postpone SRS to be during university instead of between it and college, which is probably not the best idea, since you're busier, and for more of the year, at university. Not to mention I'd be walking around with a freshly changed official name, but another name everywhere, for a year.
So I'm going to do it anyway. For my mental health, and for the promise I made to myself not to back down. Besides, I'm lucky enough to somewhat pass already without trying so much, so.
This means I'm going to need fake breasts, in one way or another, if I want to hope to be credible as female. My face may be somewhat acceptable; my voice may pass; but 22-year-old females aren't flat-chested. Or if they are, they're really thin, which I'm not. I've heard of breast forms, but that sounds pretty expensive and a hassle for something hopefully temporary.
So, being very clueless in the matter, I want to ask about the ways to fake breasts. Ideally, something cheap, that's adjustable as the real breasts below begin to grow (hopefully). Not necessarily completely cheap-looking, but let's say, a compromise of looks and price.
Also, bras to go with it. I'm not good enough to think I can predict my final size well enough to just remove the fake stuff when my breasts grow. And apparently, bras are everything but cheap. So, is there a kind of bra that would be good for this, but cheap because, say, putting real breasts in them would be really uncomfortable?
Just a detail: unlike some others, I don't naturally have any man-breasts or anything. If I removed my shirt, I don't think anyone would take a second look.
(Search for "My endo is a stubborn cow" for more details and frustration about this hormone matter.)