de-transitioning

[noname]

I've identified as ftm for about 5 years, and been presenting as male for about 2 years, and recently have been considering de-transitioning. I feel like maybe I could live as a female and be ok with it. I kind of want to be a woman, both mentally and physically. I really don't think I am one mentally, though. The thing that makes me want to de-transition is that someone I know keeps referring to me as female, and I really don't mind at all. Because she thinks I'm a girl, it makes me want to be a girl. As a male, I felt very much gender-neutral, only leaning slightly towards male. I still feel like that, even leaning towards male. But I am thinking about presenting myself as female. I fear that it will be a mistake, though. Based on my reasonings for wanting to de-transition, I am not sure that I should. I'm here to ask for advice on the matter. What do you guys think?

[Simon]

In a nutshell, you should do what makes you happy. That is what all of this is about. If I could have lived life as a female and been happy with living that way I would have. It would have made life a lot more simple.

This is about some soul searching you need to do.

It doesn't matter what anyone thinks about it but you.

[Devlyn]

Yeah, what Simon said. The Wiki is always a good source. https://www.susans.org/wiki/Detransitioning

No matter your path, we're always here for you. Hugs, Devlyn

[Natkat]

try test the water abit too see how you feel.
whatever gender you feel best with dosent matter if you feel fine that way.

[Contravene]

I was in the exact opposite position. My girlfriend saw me as male for a long time because we were friends online at first so she never knew my biological gender. Once she found out I was biologically female and we started dating in person, she took to using female pronouns and such but I didn't mind so I started to accept that I might be able to live as a female since she accepted me as one. I even wanted to identify as a woman for a while but I just couldn't no matter how hard I tried. Now here I am, back to being myself (a male) and seriously considering transitioning to reflect the fact that I am indeed male and don't want to simply accept being female despite my girlfriend's initial acceptance of it. Now my girlfriend and I both see me as a male and she loves me regardless of gender.

So I guess the moral of that story is that people will see you in many different ways but what matters is how you see yourself. You don't have to go through life simply accepting your gender just because others do.  If you feel that you're male, don't be afraid to let your body reflect that.

Maybe you should experiment with some things before completely de-transitioning. Try dressing and presenting as a female for a while to see how it feels for you, not for anyone else. If people really care about you, they'll accept you regardless of things like your gender so don't change for them, only change for yourself.