Dearest Susan's,
I am far overdue for an introduction on this wonderful forum. I've been putting off and avoiding transition for over a decade. For me, things have been rather slow to unveil themselves and my coping methods have been working so well, and for so long, I hardly recognized there was an issue until last year. Over the years I've read stories, written stories, administered communities, and been all over the web in the trans* community. This site was one of the few I neglected, and just never delved into. Until today.
Last year, in early 2012, my wife discovered an online journal of mine wherein I talked about my struggle with gender dysphoria, and what that meant for us as a family. I simply couldn't fathom bringing a child into the world knowing that our marriage may very well fall apart. At the end of September 2012, I started seeing a local gender therapist to sort things out. I knew going into the first appointment that I wasn't there to make anything go away, I was there to move forward. In December 2012, I made the decision to begin transition despite understanding that I stood to lose everything, including my marriage, family, and friends.
Things have gotten far better after the initial shock. My wife is incredibly supportive, and is probably my biggest cheerleader (though she hates that word). My father, although not as supportive as I would like, is still cordial and does respect my right to make choices -- even if he deems those choices a mistake. My mother has been inquisitive, and I feel she genuinely wants to help. My friends, whom I've come out to, have been very supportive and awesome. They are finally asking the right questions, which is comforting.
I finished cryopreservation (sperm banking) in March 2013, and got my HRT referral letter this last Friday. Today I called and booked my initial consultation for HRT on May 7th, and that's where I am today. So much more to do, but I am hopeful all of this hard work will be worth it in the end. An authentic life, full of vibrant color, emotion, and playful bouncing around -- all I've ever wanted.
Thank you,
Cassie
P.S. I have a funny feeling I know many of you from the local support group here in Orlando. Anyways, hello there!
