Quote from: Rowan Rue on April 27, 2013, 08:46:01 PM
If I was given the option to go back and start hormones when I was 18? and to have delayed puberty before that?
I wouldn't.
I consider myself blessed to be who I am, where I am and when I am.
Still, doesn't mean I don't get to feel a teeny bit jealous 
Rowan, sweetie, I adore you and your style, and everything you wear looks perfect on you, but I envy you, because until I transitioned I hated myself, my life and my entire existence. The one thing I can say about it was that it was rarely boring (BFD!) If I could do my life over I would have transitioned at 13 or 14, or more realistically, 23, which I began to in earnest in early 1978. But I quit before I started actually living full time, which totally solidified how deeply I hated myself then and every day of my existence until the morning I began living as the woman I've always, ALWAYS known I am, September 7th, 2011. So for nearly 20 months I've actually been living happily!!! and it's been virtually the only happy time in my life and that's no exaggeration. My mom, as some of you have known, had a stroke on December 12th. She'd told me some things about myself earlier in my transition about how female she always saw me as, and in retrospect thought she treated me so brutally to toughen me up for an unforgiving world. I don't know if I buy that, but since her stroke she's told me so many other incredible, important things that she just came out and said, "The more things I remember and the more I tell you about yourself as a child, the more I've always known in my heart you were meant to be a girl and my daughter. And that's who you are. You're a beautiful woman and my daughter!" Naturally, I started to cry tears of happiness, because I do that a lot lately, (It must be those estradiol shots, lol!). I'd spoken to her awhile ago about how, for me personally, I wouldn't feel totally female until I had sexual reassignment surgery.Then a few days ago I found out how serious she is about my transition. My mom isn't just calling me her daughter, she's going to give me the gift of my life, SRS! Thank you, thank you, thank you, mom! I love you! Your loving daughter, Mira
