So other than my therapisy and support group ive never told anyone. Called my mom, completly froze, she basically yanked it out of me. Expecting the worst, I was floored when responded back "so thats what its always been, that makes a lot of sense." Guess I didn't do near as well a job hiding it as I thought. She is totally supportive. Woke up the next morning and called my sister. She actually told me its about time I figured it out, and she is excited about it. Excited :-)! WOW did I misread how that was going to go. Needless to say, thrilled doesn't even come close to how I feel. Thank you to everyone here. No way I would have had the courage without reading all your stories.