Dysphoria

[Riley Skye]

So the past couple days I've been dealing with some dysphoria over my body. I'm just really wishing i was either already ahead in my transition or easier have been born as a girl. Honestly i know that I'm on the way of becoming a woman in body finally and I'm happy for it. Its just that I'm not feeling strong in transition now, that it's feeling hard to keep up my strength and positivity. I know I have to be strong but its just been being harder and harder the past few days.

[Ltl89]

Don't let it get you down.  Things will get better in time.  I share your frustration as well, but I always remind myself that things will improve.  If I am not mistaking, you have started HRT, is that right?  If so, things will start to improve drastically in time.  Just have some patience. 

[A]

Do your best to distract yourself. As with all things you're looking forward to, the more you think about it, the longer and the more depressing it is.

[Riley Skye]

Yes I've started back in January. It just feels as if the weight of my transition's bearing down a bit. I've honestly been rather happy just recently its been seeming lso much to me and I just wish it to be complete. JM just really long g to feel whole.

[sam79]

I've started to feel the same over the last couple of days. Realistically, this is a real hard part of transition, where the body is lagging behind the mind.

Distractions are good

[Joanna Dark]

i know how you feel. it's so hard waiting for those subtly dramatic results that connects your mind to your body and helps get rid of the dysphoria. And then the whole getting sir'd in public has recently started to bother me a lot which is weird since this guy i know that i used to be friends with is going around telling people how i look like a girl now and am built like a grown woman and dress like one too. He thinks it bothers me but obviously he couldn't give me a greater compliment. I don't see it at all though and really don't know what he is talking about so maybe the dysphoria takes time to go away.

[RosieD]

Oh that's interesting. Up until your post I had been convinced that the way things are done Stateside are so much more humane than the approach in the UK. It seemed to me that the gentle slide from masculine to feminine would be so much easier than having to live as a woman for (at least) three months before anyone would prescribe you anything.

I will have to admit that I have been exceptionally lucky so far with my transition but it seems to me that being forced to go about it this way has allowed me to travel through the place you are at early on and, in a sense, things can now only get better.

You very much have my sympathies as I have spent more than a few minutes sighing at the mirror in disgust and it was not a happy place to be.

Rosie, X.

[Joanna Dark]

I always thought up until last year that RLE was required for transition in the USA which kept me from transitioning all last decade. I would have done it straight outta high school if I knew it was like this. My own lack of research is my one real regret.

[Riley Skye]

No RLE is just for SRS. Personally I can't wait to start my RLE, that's when I'll know my outside is matching my inside

[Dawn Heart]

Hey JuliaVB!

Sending you lots of supportive thoughts, good energy, and warm wishes for better days ahead! I am just learning to pick out my dysphoria from other things, and am working on this part by myself. When I saw your thread, I sort of perked up at the thought that I am not alone even though I sometimes feel like it.

Best to you, Julia! 

[MaidofOrleans]

Transition has it's ups and downs. A lot of it is hormones as well so remember that next time your feeling really down. I've had my days where I just feel down in the dumps but I manage to pull through somehow