Today, I got my official therapist letter to continue HRT!
I pretty much started this whole transition process on my own... I wasn't sure that I even was transsexual when I first started. I started HRT completely on my own, pretty much self-diagnosed myself based on internet advice, (although I have always known I was transsexual for the most part, and it was just a matter of finally admitting it to myself,) and although I did switch to doing HRT under official medical supervision about a month ago, it was just at an informed-consent clinic, so it was still just based on my own desires, and was pretty much self-diagnosis, and medicating based solely on my own desires.
But not anymore!
I've finally got a therapist letter! In it, my therapist reports the results of her thorough mental health evaluation, which she has been doing with me for the last three weeks. And now my diagnosis of ->-bleeped-<- is official! And aside from being transgender, and having some mild stress issues, I have been declared officially mentally sound. No other clinical disorders, no personality disorders, no general mental conditions, and no psychosocial or environmental problems. I was rated an 80 on the "global level of functioning" scale, which basically just means that I have "transient symptoms which are expected reactions to psychosocial stressors."
And in the letter, this is the part that really hit home for me. She says "I see no reason why Charles should not continue with this process as he prepares to undergo his transition from male to female." And man... just reading that part, those words "transition from male to female," it really just hit me on this very deep, profound level that it simply never has before. I just felt this unbelievable giddy sense of happiness as I read that, realizing "Oh my God, it's really happening!!! It really is!!!" And my eyes started tearing up.
How significant is this? VERY. Because again, I'm official now! I'm no longer just some confused he/she/it/whatever that is walking down some uncertain path... I am officially on my way to transition! After all of the years of doubt, uncertainty, and the many nights of agonizingly questioning myself over whether I really was transgender or not, and whether I really was okay or not... they're finally done. I'm official!
YAY!!!!
Anyway, just wanted to share that. It feels SO good!
