I suffer from Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome, and because of it, have had VERY high levels of testosterone since I was 14 or 15 (when the condition developed). I've talked to MANY MtF trans and discovered that I have to take the same amounts of anti-androgens as they do, if not MORE, to counteract the T floating around in my body! Hard to believe that I could naturally have so much T!
Although it DOES explain my large bone structure, androgynous face and facial and body hair. =___=
I've always read of MtF people who experienced different thinking on estrogenic hormones, and I've often wondered if I would experience the same types of effects on testosterone-enhancing hormones, even given my naturally high levels.
I'm currently taking estrogenic hormones to feminize myself (I feel uncomfortable transitioning to male, at the moment, even though it's what I most deeply desire), and HAVE noticed some changes. I have noticed I get more teary-eyed at overly sad or happy movies than I ever was before. It's simple things like this that make me want to stop the hormones, even if it means going back to my original, shapeless female body.
If my anti-T's hadn't COMPLETELY cured my horrific acne, I might consider at least dropping them down some, just to see what effects it would have on my mentality. However, no matter what gender I chose to portray myself as, it is NOT worth the shame and self-hatred I feel when my face is covered in blood-red acne breakouts.
My self-esteem is pretty much as low as it gets, I can't see taking myself off the one thing that's helped clear my face up...
