So today I have officially reached out to a gender therapist and plan on starting the process. As some of you may know, I have been avoiding the starting parts of my transition that could out me while living at home. But, I really can't hold myself up anymore and have decided to just move forward. Because I am on my parents insurance, there really is not much time for hiding anymore. It's only a matter of time before they catch on. However, I have been writing a very long coming out letter that I hope will gain their acceptance.
It's a very weird feeling to say the least. On the one hand, I am very scared about getting rejected and losing the support of my mother (which I need because I live at home and don't have the ability to move out). But on the other hand, I am finally going to be able to start transitioning and leave the past behind. While I have gone to support groups, came out to friends and started to feminize myself to a degree, I forced myself into a closet that wouldn't allow me to make the progress that I needed. Now, I just have to destroy that damn closet,lol. Even though this is not much of a start, I am super excited and it's a big deal to me. I'm just hoping it won't take forever to get on hormones because I need to start soon.
I wanted to share this with everyone because you have all been so helpful and supportive. I can't express how much it has meant to me. Thank you for helping me gain the courage to finally make a start. I've held myself back for years because of fear of rejection and concerns about my families reaction. The support here has really enabled me to put things into perspective. For that, I am grateful.
