My sexuality is sort of confusing. People would identify me differently than I probably would.
In terms of physical attraction, I tend to like both genders. I like both masculine and feminine features. Yet, I find myself skeeved out at the thought of being physical with anyone. I am not asexual, but very insecure with my body. However, if I were comfortable, I am still not sure how I'd feel being with a woman. There are many things I flat out wouldn't do. Post op, well I'd be more open. As for men, I really like the idea of it all,lol. Still feel awkward with being pre-op, but think I could work around it all.
In terms of romantic attraction, I really see myself with a guy exclusively. It just feels right to me and makes me happy whenever I think of it. However, I don't know if I am turned off to being with a woman because I don't want to be seen as a "boyfriend" and expected to be the guy of the relationship. This is problematic for a relationship in any gender, but I can't help but feel I would be more comfortable with a man for this reason. Even if I were post op, I don't think I would ever feel comfortable or happy with a woman. I just feel more happy and excited when I imagine dating a guy as a woman. Dating girls really just turns me off. Still, I have had crushes from time to time on girls. But, in the end, I know I would much rather be happy with a friendship than a dating situation.
So, I don't know how to properly label my sexuality. I consider myself straight because of my romantic inclinations, but others would say I am bisexual or bi-curious.
