Dysphoria from hysto recovery

[mangoslayer]

My hysterectomy was 2 days ago and im glad its done but the dysphoria from the recovery is just awful. I don't know what to do about it. Its like every part of my body has decided to gang up on me and say "hey quess what! you have a vagina!". The bleeding, the pad, the location of the pain, the inability to pack, and everything else are just too much to handle. I can't even sit through an hourlong tv show without a bout of dysphoria hitting me. I can't do much besides sit in my room, sleep, and cry. I wish there was something that could cheer me up but since i cant move much and im too dysphoric to interact with any other humans, thats not gonna happen. I just hate this.
(Mostly a rant, but if you have any suggestions, please tell me.

[JesseO]

No suggestions man, just sympathy. I had mine about 2 weeks? ago...and I feel the same exact way. I have never had dysphoria about my inside bits until they were removed. The use of the "liner" is what is killing me. I just try and remind myself that I am using them ONLY because I had surgery, they are absorbent and regular gauze wouldn't work in that area. Sorry I don't have any advice, just know you definitely aren't alone in your feelings.

[Simon]

I was lucky that I only had spotting from the cuff for maybe two days post op. I never knew the hospital had given me pads because my gf took them before I could see them (God bless her). She said after my breakdown post op about getting my binder back on there was no way she was going to let me see pads. The bleeding wasn't but spots and if I got it on my boxers we'd just toss them and buy new ones if it stained.

I do remember the cramping afterwards. The cramps were horrendous when my bladder was full and especially so if I needed to take a dump. I found that going to the bathroom a lot eased the cramps. I thought that the surgeon had done something wrong in there because the cramps were awful but no...from everything I've read online it was normal. The good news is those cramps will slowly ease up over the next few weeks until they disappear.

Remember that not only right now are you in post op pain, your body is also going through fluctuations in hormones. That's going to make you feel off for awhile until everything settles down. Some people also get depression symptoms from coming off anesthesia and also from pain medication. That could be bothering you a bit too.

I know right now you don't appreciate what you're going through but congrats anyways. Just hang in there. A month from now you're going to feel great. You'll never have cramps. You'll never have to worry about bleeding. Dude, I'm telling you that after you heal having had a hysto is very nice.

[sneakersjay]

Could also be the sudden loss of hormones.  Many guys have issues.  I was thrilled beyond belief that the dysphoric parts were gone (huge dysphoria about my internal organs). Yes the hole part is disgusting, but I focused on the fact that it was NOT the red death but healing because the yuk parts were gone.

Try to focus on the positive, that once you are healed there will be no yuk from there ever again.

Happy healing.  And take your T as soon as your doc gives you the OK.

[AdamMLP]

It might help to remember that after some things even cis guys have to use pads, and no, not that sort of thing...  My grandfather had to have a sample of his colon taken for testing, and they basically shoot you up the rear passage and grab a sample.  He said it sounded/felt like they used an air rifle.  Afterwards they gave him pads to wear encase there was any bleeding (cue my nan having to awkwardly explain that you don't stick them to yourself), and he was in quite a bit of internal pain for a couple of days.

Just remember that this is the last time that you'll be getting pain related to anything like that, and it'll only last for a minuscule fraction of your life.  Say it lasts for a week and you live to be 85, that's 0.0023% of your life time.  Really not much.