Well, I can't say I'm annoyed with other people in my life. It's more like a rant about myself with sprinklings of spousal annoyance. I'm a FTM trans person. Haven't started T and haven't even gotten to the point of seeing a gender therapist. (Money is tight and I'm still collecting my thoughts.) My wife is a MTF trans person, more outgoing and open about this fact. Dresses in women's clothing, wears makeup, and even owns a wig when she's feeling feisty. I don't mind this in the least as I dated girls only before I met her so walking arm and arm as a couple of "ladies" never bothers me.
No, the issue is mainly that she doesn't quite "get" why I'm balking at saying anything to anyone. She "gets" it but it seems like she'll ask every few days if I was going to spill the beans to my family soon or if I was going to come out to her family. Well, as I've said, I'm still gathering my thoughts on this and coming to grips with the reality that I'm trans. I mean, my family including myself thought that I was lesbian but then I settled down (happily) with a man. So, not only is it a "me" thing but I really don't want to come out AGAIN on something that I'm still sensitive about declaring openly. It would also suck if I backed out of medically transitioning because I already know our families won't "get" someone being trans but not medically transitioning.
Finally, there is me. Indecisive and a total worrywart about this. Everything from legal issues to emotional issues to physical issues. I've got a lot of things plaguing my thoughts and this rearing it's head in full force pretty much completely turned my world upside down. I want to keep this to myself forever, but at the same time, I need to be "out" to some degree or people will not understand why I'm suddenly a guy named Tobias.
Sometimes, these life changing revelations can be harder to deal with than the confusion when trying to figure it out in the first place.
