Hi Everyone,
I have been "offline" for a while, just moved interstate and going to start in a new job, moving into shared accommodation and to top it off am dealing with trying to tell my best friend who I have lived away from for 4 years (but still saw about 6monthly) that I am trans! You know how they say that moving is one of the most stressful things you can do? I think I've kinda made it as bad as I can make it...
So I've had to go all stealth with my living arrangements because I can't afford to have a place to myself, which I have had for the last 2 years or so, and this is going to be tough. Shared kitchen, bathroom and showers, yea, not going to be easy. I think of it as kinda like what dorms are like in the states with college, except at least I will have a room to myself, albeit a small room.
This part is fine, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and tbh I don't care if people think I spend too much time in the shower or see me plucking my eyebrows but hair removal might become tricky! Me standing in the guys bathroom with an epilator doing my legs might be a bit much for them.
Moving? I've moved house and city so many times I don't care any more, although I do really like the idea of not moving again for a long time (when I get my own place!).
I guess this random rant is really me just freaking out about telling my best friend. I've come out to my immediate family and just changing jobs means telling anyone at work is a while off, It's just that having lived so for apart I haven't had a chance to visit and tell him yet and now that we are at least in the same city I can't help but just want to catch up for a while "like the good ol days" just in case thing get awkward for a while.
Do not get me wrong, he is a genuine friend and I have no doubt that he will accept me as who I am but I do feel selfish in not telling him ASAP so I can feel a little bit more comfortable with myself and have a chance to catch up. I have wanted to tell him since I first came out to myself but circumstance has conspired against me and now that I am so close by part of me wants to put coming out on hold... for a short while at least... which again, makes me feel like I'm hiding something/lying to my best friend (which I hate!).
Anyone been there before? Ask me a month ago and I would have done it just after I first saw him but for some reason now just doesn't feel right and I can just see tat waiting longer will just get harder and harder...
Also! Anyone else in Sydney? I've lived here before for a long time but not for a while, It'd be nice to maybe meet new people and chat, PM me if your interested
Kind regards,
Cynths
