My mane is Jennifer Elizabeth,
I'm 40 and Im 5'8". Like most of us, I knew I was different from a early age. i just knew someing wasn't right.
But, the way I was brought up( bascially sheltered to a degree) I didn't find out what was making me different untill I was 15 and in 9th or 10th grade. This was when I found the name and that the feelings , well I wasnt alone.
I for english class, the teacher had us do a report on a bio of a doctor. I searched the whole libaray and came across
the book " Second Serve" by Renee Richards. And then the discoveries and learning.
I stayed in denial all through my 20s, but, the denial was having a bad effect on me and my attitude. I used to be one of the most even tempered people you could want to meet. I finally found my first therapist at 25. She did a good job, but, not being an expert in GID, I was still bad off. This really caused me to loose alot of good jobs. I became homeless 3 times. And it was my temper and denial to blame. I never had a job longer than 3 months.
At, 31, I finally tried what my father wanted, I got married. Very idea. On both parts. Me and my two sides battling it out. And her with her additions. Well it lasted for 5 years, when she died.
The whole time afterward, I was thinking I didnt give it a good
shot.So, I tried again at 37. and Im still married. And she knows, because she noticed on my collection or books I had wronte my female name. She
confronted me and thought I was cheating. But, I finally told her my story. She is some what suporting for the most part. And this has helped me, in that I dont have to hide in denial. I live most of my time at home as a woman. I have a great therapist now, and am on my fifth year of hrt. Ive told my managers and boss at work, and they are very supporting. But, I cant transition until my name change, and that is next.
