Anger

[dpadgett628]

Lately I've been finding that I get angrier than I used to over things. I'm pre-op and pre-T so its nothing to do with that kind of stuff.

At one point I was angry all the time at everything just because I was depressed(this was before I can to the realization of being trans) and lets just say that I wasn't so smart about getting it out. But this is different. Its more concentrated at my parents and at the mere fact of being trans. Part of me blames my parents for my being this way, even though obviously its nothing they did. I'm angry at the fact that I have to put up with this and that I will never be "normal" (this is only how I view myself and I'm not saying that anyone here isn't "normal").

I'm not really sure how to explain it, as words clearly aren't my strong suit today.

As much as I hope no one has dealt with this, 'cause it sucks, does anyone have any advice on how to overcome this? Even if temporarily until I see my therapist in a couple weeks?

Thanks everyone, and stay strong!

~Dylan

[Ltl89]

Depression can breed anger.  Work on fixing the depression and the anger will less with it.  There is nothing wrong with being trans, but we often do feel guilty or ashamed about it.  I have a hard time accepting myself at times.  The best thing to do is to learn that there is nothing wrong with yourself and that you are like any other guy.  This is easier said than done, but the more you work towards self acceptance and internal pride, the more peaceful you will feel.  While it's a tough phase to get out of, please realize that many of us have been there before.  Just hang in there and it will improve. 

[Emily Aster]

I find that as my depression worsens, so does my anxiety. And when that hits a tipping point, everything just annoys the crap out of me. I lose my appetite. I lose interest in things that I've always enjoyed. I end up pretty much just sleeping my life away, just trying to get to the next day.

[Edge]

As much as I hope no one has dealt with this, 'cause it sucks, does anyone have any advice on how to overcome this? Even if temporarily until I see my therapist in a couple weeks?

I went to an anger management group that also used bits from DBT. I'm still a seething ball of hate, but I can hide it better now.

[gennee]

Dylan,you are the person that you are. What makes you say that you're not normal? Yes, there's
the nonsense that others dump upon you but you can become the person that you want to be. 

[dpadgett628]

I really appreciate everything that you all have said. I do realize that everyone goes through these patches and I guess its just a matter of learning how to work through it.

Dylan,you are the person that you are. What makes you say that you're not normal? Yes, there's
the nonsense that others dump upon you but you can become the person that you want to be. 

You are completely right Ms. Gennee. I guess I am just having a hard time feeling that it is possible to become more. I'll get past it though Especially since there is this whole new family that I have discovered through Susan's!

[King Malachite]

Wow, I know exactly how you feel.  I'm pretransition and I find myself getting emotional or angrier at the smaller things because I'm trans, yet I have no one to talk to about it outside of here that would support me.  That festers up.  I'm still trying to figure out a solution for it but I start to get angry I will just close my eyes and say "ok.

Also, having a goal or a plan in mind or perhaps a timeline for your transition can help you look foward to something, and may help you  with the angry.